Isn't he adorable? I think so, but I may be a bit biased.
Oh how I love this sweet little face! Seeing this boy makes all that I've gone through in the last few weeks worth it.
This recovery has been a bit harder than my other ones. Maybe its the fact that I'm not 21 anymore. It could be that I lost a lot more blood this time with my hemorrhage. Or maybe its that I had three kids in about 3 1/2 years. Either way, I've been pregnant or nursing almost non stop since September of 2007 (I had a two month break between nursing Mason and getting pregnant with Porter). I think my body may be a little worn out, which is why its not bouncing back as fast. Usually by the second or third week out I am pretty much back to normal...but not this time. I still feel worn out. I am still in pain. And I'm having some crazy anxiety attacks...I blame them on the shifting hormones.
Also, I have a blood clot on the back of my hand that throbs all of the time. Its about three inches above where they had my (painful) IV. The doctor at the local Instacare told me to just put warm compresses on it and take ibuprofen. He told me not to worry about it, but, um, its a freaking blood clot. After a week of doing what he told me to, nothing has changed and I keep wondering if I should call my OB's office and see what they think. I'm pretty sure taking all of this ibuprofen is ruining my stomach...its ached all day.
In spite of still not feeling 100%, I am so very, very thankful for this precious boy! He's totally worth all the pain. I often fall asleep with him in my arms as we snuggle. He's a little slice of heaven.
I'm thankful for my wonderful mother who lets me call her and talk forever about nothing. She doesn't know how much it helps me to have someone to talk to and vent my frustrations to. She truly is an angel.
I'm so thankful for my sweet sister-in-laws, who came to help me the first week I was home. They'll never know how much it meant to me to have people here to help out! They cleaned my house, did my laundry, and played with and fed my children. I'm thankful I married into such a great family.
I'm thankful for my amazing neighbor, who was able to go pick up Carson from school for me when he got the stomach flu and I still wasn't able to drive. I'm thankful for her random calls to invite the boys over to play. I'm not the kind of person that will just call up someone and ask for help, so to have her go out of her way to take my boys means so much! I truly have some great friends.
And I am so thankful for a wonderful husband that has to put up with his sickly, hormonal wife. He's always so willing to take Porter at night when I'm too exhausted to stay up. He's pitched in a lot lately with dishes, laundry, and cooking dinner. He doesn't complain when he comes home to a messy house and a wife still lounging in her pajamas. I love him for all that he does for our family!
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those same memories are all still so fresh for me. hang in there... and keep snuggling that adorable little boy, that was the only thing that got me through those first 6 weeks! Good luck. :)
I'm so sorry my dear! I wish I was closer and I could help you out and we could get to know each other again. Just remember you can all of the blessing you want/need. :)
I'm still amazed at how fast you've been able to bounce back with your others. You are still only a few weeks out, so give yourself time. I'm so sorry I haven't been able to help more, I feel bad about that.
And if your clot doesn't go away, I would ask your OB about it. If it is one that you can feel, it is most likely a superficial clot which is much better than a deep clot, but a clot is a clot and you need to have it taken care of. A lot of times they will put you on a blood thinner, but maybe they are thinking the risk of your bleeding outweighs the risk of the clot? In any case, I hope you are able to get rid of it on your own.
Hang in there, you are an amazing mother and Heavenly Father won't give you things you can't handle. Your husband and kids are so lucky and blessed to have you!
Fresh feelings for me, reading all of your frustrations. Remember how amazing you are! Take a break for you..... thanks for being such a good example for the rest of us.... loving motherhood and enduring to the end!
And yes... he is adorable!
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