As the seasons change, I can't help but think of how symbolic it is of what is happening to our family right now. We are changing and entering into a new season of life.
- First off, we are settled. After being in our house for a year it just feels like HOME. Like I never want to leave. We have such a wonderful little home in a wonderful neighborhood--I am so blessed. After all those years of wanting and praying for a house and getting a "no" answer I can now see why. If we would have bought a home in Rexburg we never would have had the experiences we've been able to have since we left Idaho. Would have never met the people we've met or done some of things we've done. We never would have grown how we were supposed to. We would have been stuck.
- Secondly, its been a big turning point to have Carson go to school. Those of you who are closest to me know that this year is our "trial period" with public school. I'm not all that thrilled about the idea of my children being thrown into the public school system. I've taught there. Its a scary place and parents have no idea what is really going on with their kids. Believe me, I've seen it. If we decide it isn't for us then we will probably homeschool. I know, you've got a million reasons why homeschool is the wrong choice, and I've heard them all. But with new technology and a parent who is conscious about getting their child involved in extra curricular activities, I don't really see why it would be such a horrible thing. To think I could have my children at home with me, taught by me, and bonding with siblings makes me feel happy. We'll just have to wait and see how this school year unfolds...I may end up liking public school. After all, my own experience with public school was a positive one.
- Third on my list of changes would be me. Over the past {almost} 3 years since I graduated I've felt a little stuck in life. Now I love being home with my babies and wouldn't trade it for anything, but I think I've devoted my life to them and forgotten who I am. I've started to wake up over the past few months and do some things for me. One of those things has been to train for a 5K. I hate running. Have always hated it. So for me to go out and run is by itself is an accomplishment. I look at how far I've come in the past 6 weeks and it makes me smile. I can run more than three times the distance I could when I started. And now I've developed a love-hate relationship with running...rather than the hate-hate relationship I used to have. I hate how I hurt and how winded I feel when I am out doing it, but I absolutely love how good I feel afterwards. So hopefully I'll be able to do this 5K in the next 2 1/2 weeks...well, at least run part of it- I'm still not in good enough shape to run the whole thing- but I'm getting there.
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It's nice that you are able to reflect and see the positive of the experiences that come your way. I know what you mean about somewhere feeling like home, I feel that way too. :) And if you want to homeschool, more power to you. I know it's something that I couldn't handle, but that's just me. You've got great experience, yes you have seen how school districts work, and if you decide to homeschool next year, I wish you lots of luck. I guess that's where I will hope that we teach our kids well enough at home for them to make good decisions in school, and when they are around influences that might not be the best for them.
And running - I can't tell you how proud I am of you! It's all about consistency and baby steps and I'm totally rooting for you in this 5K. I know you can do it. And there gets to a point where it's mind over matter. Times when you feel winded and your body hurts, and you don't think you could possibly go on. That's when you push through the hate part of running.
I'm glad that we ended up being so close, and that I have your friendship. There's nothing quite like having a good friend that you can trust, confide in, and look up to.
Thanks for that great post. :)
I feel like I'm finally "waking up" too! I worked for 6 years before we had kids, and another year after. When I became a SAHM I threw myself into it and stopped doing a lot of the things I used to do for ME. This year I've really stared again! Running, sewing, reading, all the stuff I really love to do. It's weird how that happens, huh?
Good job on the running. I love running, but I'm kind of the same... I don't always love it while I'm stuck on the treadmill, but I love how I feel and the sense of accomplishment I get when I see myself improve. Good luck with the race in a couple of weeks. Keep a nice steady (if you're like me... slow) pace and you'll do great!
And I can relate to your thoughts on home vs public school. We'll be starting out in public school, but I, too, wonder if it will be temporary. :)
You are simply amazing, Sara. Loved reading your post. Goes to show that change is good.... just have to sometimes look a little deeper for the good! :0) Good luck with your run!
That is so awesome about you running!!! I've taken up running lately too and it is very satisfying afterwards. Keep at it! You'll get better!!
So glad that you feel at home. Linden and I are still waiting for that. Maybe someday our yes will come, also. Congrats on the running. It truly is great to get done and feel that sense of accomplishment and the "high" that runners get. Take care.
How wonderful to feel settled, and way to go on the 5K goal!
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